Sleepless

The inability to sleep during the night does things to your mind. Sometimes, when you are in that state during the night, you are neither awake nor asleep. Everything feels so distant to you. Your mind wanders aimlessly, you feel the fatigue, and occasionally, you feel pain. Memories of the past resurface, voices of friends and families are heard at the back of your head, and its all one big fucking mess.

I can't bloody sleep. My eyebags have fallen victim to this abuse. I can't think straight now. Its 7.50 a.m and I have been awake all night. This is really fucked up. The sun has long been up, the fucking vehicles piss me off with their engine noises. Its spring here now, but it doesn't make a single difference.

In this state, I would love to drive, but Sydney roads aren't speeding friendly. I am not speeding for now anyway because I just recently crashed the car badly and my girl gave me a maximum speed of 140 km/h restriction. Talking about her, I miss her. In fact, I miss everyone. I miss Malaysia, but I ain't gonna take a bloody flight home until I pass most of my subjects this term. Failing too many more and I may have to pack my bags and take the next flight to Pakistan.

I am confused. I have been staring at a morph on the carpet for a long time. It isn't moving. Maybe I should stop bitching like a 14 year old gal who tells everything that goes on in her life on a blog. I am pissed. The morph still isn't moving. How can it die on me like that when my apartment has everything it needs? Fucking ungrateful bitch. I have ample food for it. Even the cockroaches in my apartment would agree.

Which reminds me, the cockroaches in my apartment are the toughest and smartest ever. They have evolved to become thinner to escape into crevices. The dumb ones have all been killed, leaving the intelligent ones. They bred, producing superb offsprings. After years of evolutionary natural selection due to my brother's attempt to eradicate them, I am left to deal with the aftermath. I'm so damn pissed because cockroaches can survive here despite my attempts to eradicate them, but the fucking morph just died on me. Bloody ungrateful.

I think I need frogs in my apartment. It should be able to get rid of the cockroaches. Bloody brilliant. Then to get rid of the frogs, I would introduce small alligators. Brilliant. I am a genius. In fact, every home should have frogs and alligators. Never mind if the alligator chews on your baby's balls. He would have turned out to be a prick anyway, since you could leave him unattended like that. Gosh, in fact, we should all add even more animals into our homes. We would build cages all over to seperate the kickass animals like tigers from loser animals like koalas. Which reminds me, koalas and kangaroos are bloody ugly. They deserve to be eaten. Anyway, back to my idea. With all these animals in your home, you can open it up to public and name it a zoo.

Talking about zoos, a bloody deer once took my KFC. That bloody whore. Someday I will eat the livers of its descendants. Wasn't it supposed to be vegetarian? Well, I guess the thought of meat is just too tempting for even devout vegetarians like deers. I mean, who wouldn't like the taste of salty warm meat in their mouth? Even vegetarians want it. By the way, Adolf Hitler was a vegetarian. He was smart and charismatic. People loved him, especially the Jews. I heard they loved him so much that they gathered in camps and did work in honour of him.

Gosh, I can't think straight anymore. Maybe I should go flush the morph down the toilet bowl or something later. I have a 640 aussie dollars phone bill staring at my face. I think I may have to pay it sometime soon. I am no longer making sense. I am officially a degenerate. Maybe I shall delete this post next week or something.

Come to think of it, I am starting to enjoy this. Maybe I won't need to buy a bottle of Dettol yet. Nice. Life rocks. I love skipping classes and failing courses. Okay, I better go before I spit out more retarded irrelevant comments. Good night. Or morning. Or whatever turns you on.